April Reflections: When Inner Guidance Leads The Way
Turns out, my hair was just the beginning…
Actually, rearranging my whole home healing space and being told I was no longer allowed to have a desk to work at came before any of this.
I received a BodyTalk session from a fabulous practitioner in Western Australia who alerted me to “geopathic stress” in my home. BTWs I had no idea what this meant, but thankfully he gave me specific guidance (he even made me a video since the session was done remotely – our time zones are waay to different to line up) to use a pendulum to find the stress in the home.
I found it – right where my desk was located. I did a BodyTalk session on that area in my home (seriously, you can do BodyTalk on anything – it’s miraculous to say the least!) and that’s when I received the guidance to remove the desk and to help support that area as it had been traumatized by the building of the home in 1929. I was told that sitting at a desk working all day – even from my home space – no longer served me.
Seems as though, as I approached my 35th birthday, there were many things that no longer served me. I was then guided to chop my hair, as outlined here.
In fact, the night I cut my hair I received guidance that I also needed to end my romantic partnership.
What the what?!
I resisted. Surely, there was a way to make things “work.”
Later that week I received a BodyTalk session from one of my favorite practitioners in NYC and (she knew none of the above and the session was fully remote), the following message was delivered from my session:
“The notion of finding “The One” is meant for smaller souls than one like yours, so let your soul be free to love your current partner fully and trust that wherever it is going, that is the right path for you.”
What??? “The One” is not a concept that serves me? The facilitator of Manifest True Love, the author of The Quest: A Tale of Desire & Magic?
You’ve got to be kidding me.
But no-sir-ree, my inner guidance was not kidding me.
From there the Universe conspired relentlessly to show me the signs. And let me just note it made the “signs” to chop my hair look like a walk in the park. I received daily signals that my relationship was ready to dissolve and that this concept of The One was no longer serving me.
I had no choice but to surrender.
Surrender to the whisper that came into my meditation one evening amidst my confused mind: You are the love of your life.
Surrender to the clarity of my soul, despite my mind’s desire to “make it work.”
Surrender to the knowing that we never get it wrong, and we never get it done (Thank you Abraham-Hicks!).
Surrender tothe realization that women and men left my Manifest True Love series not just with dates, but with a deeper focus on self-loving in a way they hadn’t yet connected to.
Surrender to the distinct and clear acknowledgement that often love relationships are about coming together to make our insecurities “okay,” not two fully whole people coming together to support one another on a mutually fulfilling path.
Relationships under the above construct are, as I have learned, playing small. And apparently I’m not allowed to do that anymore.
Since fully owning this knowing deep within me, my life has expanded in ways I cannot yet fully process. I feel like a gimp at times, standing tall, my mouth open (see above photo – and after a photoshoot with the kick-ass photog Kathy Campbell, you’ll soon see more of this!), a grin emanating from every muscle in my face.
I awoke the morning of my 35 birthday feeling that I was now becoming the woman I would have been if I had not experienced such trauma in my early years. Tears poured down my face as I felt ME, the ME that had been there all along, aching for me to acknowledge it and set ME fully free into this world. I am more ME than I have ever been in my life and becoming more so every day. This BodyTalk path to wholeness is setting ME free in ways I never could have imagined.
So now, along with the silly grin on my face, I am walking around in a state of profound gratitude, thanking the Universe, my guides and angels of the highest light, the founder of BodyTalk John Veltheim, and whomever else might be necessary to thank for these blessings.
I have been receiving 3 or more BodyTalk sessions a week to support this transition and it has been beyond incredible.
BIG things are on the way for those engaged in this deep healing work, those committed to following our innate wisdom as it guides us so perfectly, so beautifully – and guides us even when we can’t imagine where it is leading us.
So, I have no idea where this path will take me next. And I am so completely committed to following the guidance from within to live my soul purpose to its fullest expression, that it doesn’t even matter. I am here now and it is beyond my wildest dreams (this is no exaggeration as I was raised believing Armageddon could arrive at any moment, but more on this awesome part of my journey in the months to come…).
Thank you for sharing this journey with me.
I am so grateful for you.
So much love to you,
Posted: April 1st, 2013 under Uncategorized.